slightly deviate from the original plan, me and alvin came in singapore on 18 Dec evening. initially i planned to come earlier and stay in my uncle's place.. but i couldn't bear to leave benji.. this is the first time that i am going to be away from him for so many days...
we arrive singapore on 18 Dec late evening.. we went for a dinner, somewhere near my uncle's house.. then went back to rest.. i was very excited and nervous.. wake up at 3am without alarm and couldn't fall sleep again..
we arrived at hospital at about 445am. settle the admission, the nurse bring us and prepared me for the cesarean. i waited till 630am before i was directed to the operation room. i was very nervous due to the past epidural experience.. it wasn't painful, it's just that i am not comfortable having people doing things at my back... and i totally have no control of it.. another thing that i was nervous about is the stitching process after baby is out from my tummy. i dislike the feeling that i have no control over things happening on me and there is nothing that i can do about it.
the operation started at 710am (when the doctor first cut on me). alvin walked in. i was completely glad to see him. i mean, at that time. i know i may not have courage to do all these all by myself without him. and throughout the whole pregnancy, this is the 1st time that i feel he really standby me and supported me. alvin knew my fear, he comfort me by touching my forehead.. his touches really calm me down.
726am, that's the time i first hear Charles scream.. the cries melted my heart... just like 2 years back when benji came to my life.. the nurse bring charles to me, allow me to carry him awhile.. i could feel his soft cheek when i kissed him. he is a beautiful and healthy baby... (^_^)
alvin left with charles to witness the nurses clean him up and register him. i am alone again. i try to control my mind so that i wont be beaten up by the fear of "stitching process". luckily my doctor really do it real fast.. the whole process was completed by 810am.
when i was sent back to my room, alvin waited there. honestly, i have to say... his appearance does comfort me a lot. i may really having difficulty to do this on my own.. >.<
