love you.... mama

i had insomnia last night... the aircon was too cold and i couldn't sleep well coz of sensitive nose...

i woke up and switch off the air con.

benji feel warm and started to roll around the bed.. he is awake too..

i have no choice but to turn on the air con again.

benji asked for milk. i fed him.

he still couldn't sleep. keep rolling and playing with his favorite "臭臭", with his eye open...

i was chit chating with my hubby, the man who doesn't sleep at night,... =.=!!

then suddenly i heard benji say.... "love you.................... ma ma.........."

my heart melted........... 

he normally love his papa... i din expect him to say mama last night.....

with this, i think is worth it to do anything and everything for my darling....

benji darling, mama love to  you is endless and invincible.. 

mama will love u forever...  

Esther's wedding

We attended my youngest sister's wedding on 21 oct 2012. Not many photos taken as i was kinda tired.. manage to take 2 photo with angeline in the dinner..

Count down to 19 Dec 2012

Wow Wow.. cannot imagine that I am on 32 weeks pregnant now...

I feel myself a bad mummy!

• I have not been taking care of benji for the 1st 3 months of my pregnancy due to nausea and tireness.
• I am on relax mode now.. and avoiding handling benji alone.....
• I have not been recording my bb's development!
• I have not been controlling my diet in this pregnancy....
• I have not decide bb's name! his name is benji di di or baby as for now... =.=!!

Argh!!! i feel myself so useless and the guilt in me cause nightmares when i sleep.... :(

one night i dreamt that baby is born premature and he is dark skin (not catergorised in the white white fat fat group), and refuse to drink milk...

then i got nightmare that i had contraction in a massive traffic jam and no direction to go!!

gosh.. stress stress....

19 Dec 2012 is only about 1.5 months away.. i hope it will be a smooth delivery (ceserean thou)....

baby, mummy loves you as much as i love benji.. stay in mummy's belly till then ok??