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Benji 1 year old vaccine

2012-01-06T16:32:00.003+08:00

Benji go for his 1 year old vaccine today.

2 vaccines - the 1st dose of MMR (measles, mumps & Rubella) & 1st PVC booster for Pneumococcal.

Alvin said benji did not cry, I am glad to hear that... my boy has grown up.

and he is 80cm & 9.9kg. :) i believe he is a healthy baby...

mummy boy, do grow up healthy & happily. Mummy give u lots & lots of love.

End of the breastfeeding story......

2012-01-06T13:39:00.004+08:00

I have officially stop breastfeeding start from today!!!

As if today, i have manage to breast feed benji for 1 year and 7 days (372 days). Though i cannot say that i have remarkable results, but I am truly proud of myself & benji.. It is absolutely not easy to be a breastfeeding working mother, especially I have to travel ~1.5 hours to/from work (total 3 hours).

The journey is hard, but i am glad that i have made it. My initial target was 6 months, then 9 months, then I have mange to go to 1 year!

Thanks to all my friends who have given me lots & lots of advice & encouragement.. without you all, my benji would not grow fat fat white white like that.

Thanks to benji, whom has given me the most courage when he 1st suck my nipple as if he is telling me "mama, i know how to do it, don worry.. we are going to work well on this".... i still remember my first time bf benji, i was so touch by the bonding feel that i have never felt before.. it's simply amazing!

Thinking of ending breastfeeding, I really feel upset about it. I am too used to having benji in my arms, making me feel that how much he needs me... But Benji has too many things to focus on and learn about.. We must move on from here...

I am really grateful that benji is well adapting to the solid (in fact, he loves to eat). and with the remaining limited stock of breast milk I have stored, hopefully benji can adapt to the formula milk soon... But Benji has never let me down.. And I have confident that he will going to show a another wonder!

Happy Birthday to benji!!

2012-01-05T15:01:00.002+08:00

Benji celebrated his 1st birthday twice.

one on the exact 29 Dec with 爷爷奶奶 and plenty of uncle aunties, and another one on 31 Dec with 公公婆婆 in Klang.

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2011-10-11T22:15:00.005+08:00

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"Tired benji but refuse to sleep"

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Benji has recovered!

2011-10-03T22:49:00.001+08:00

This morning benji wakes up early, before I left to work.

He definitely feels so much better than he is no longer selfish to share his sunny smile..

Benji my sunshine.. Pls don ever fall sick again.. Mummy heart cannot take it.

是假麻吗？

2011-10-02T09:14:00.001+08:00

2011-07-26T22:22:00.001+08:00

Benji can hardly turn around and take up his head even he is in almost 7 months now.. Probably his head is too heavy or he is too lazy.. Recently he started to enjoy his tummy time.. Though he still not able to keep his balance well.. but I know he has tried his best..

- lilie at blogpress

Heng heng from jiu jiu fish eye

2011-07-13T17:25:00.001+08:00

- lilie at blogpress

He love his teething rusk

2011-07-13T09:07:00.000+08:00

This is the fat fat me

2011-07-12T06:53:00.000+08:00

Over excited to try all types of application with my iPhone.. Haha..

Realize that I am so round now!!

Mobile blogging

2011-07-12T06:50:00.000+08:00

I've tried to set up the mobile blogging so that blogging can be a few typing away..

But when I type register to go@blogger.com, there is no reply from blogspot.. Anyone can advise??

Regards,
Lilie Ang

Sent from my IPhone

My benji boy has grown up

2011-07-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

Last sat I was not working.. It has been quite awhile since I last accompany him on Saturday.. I just come to realize that my son has grow so big already..

Breast Feeding Experience

2011-05-24T08:39:00.002+08:00

I am proud of myself.. I have been breastfeed benji for nearly 5 months..

Never have thought that I can make it so far.. but i have... :)

and benji boy is growing happily and healthy drinking the milk.

Recently he seems ready for other food. hm.. may be i should think about introducing some fruit juice to him...

i am thinking of barli & apple juice.. any other suggestion??

Sitting is Killing You

2011-05-24T08:37:00.001+08:00

Via: Medical Billing And Coding

Benji boy at 4 months 3 days

2011-05-02T20:40:00.003+08:00

During benji last visit to the doctor for Pneumococcal vaccine & Oral polio vaccine (Sabin) on 28 April, doctor says that he is above average, for weighing 8kg at 4 month. height 68cm.

I swear he is not fat. only his arms and legs are slightly bigger in size.. the rest are just perfect.

I bring him back to Klang for long weekend (Friday till Monday). The 1st day he cried badly because he recognize himself at the strange place, meeting stranger. The second day, he play happily with the ah yi(s) and grandma. 3rd day, he been spoiled by all of them (including me of coz), and 4th day when he return home, he cries badly again... missing his home in klang..

Darling benji, mummy knows that you like klang, mummy will plan to bring you back again.. in June! I promise!

Life of working mum..

2011-05-02T20:08:00.004+08:00

Making : full use of myself to be a part time mum (though i wish i can be a full time one)
Cooking : nothing. have not been cooking since graduated.
Drinking : oat milk. for better breast milk productivity.
Reading : lots of mother-baby magazine. friends' blogs to learn more about motherhood. also books by 刘轩.
Wanting : to be a stay at home mum, yet a 富贵太太
Looking : forward for next trip back home! in June may be
Playing : with benji boy all the time. nothing else but him only
Wishing : benji boy is healthy & happy everyday
Enjoying : the milk pumping time. the only time belongs to myself
Waiting : for year end holiday
Liking : ice blended mocha
Wondering : how would my family be in a year time.
Loving : the strong bonding relationship that i have with my family & chi muis.
Hoping : to earn more money for benji future expenses
Marveling : how did benji actually change my life
Needing : continuous support from family and friends
Smelling : rice dumpling made by my mum.. yum yum..
Wearing : pajamas.
Following : gossip gal
Noticing : my life is all about benji nowadays. need to get myself balance life.
Learning : how to be a good mother.
Thinking : to have a coffee shop by myself in the next 5 years
Bookmarking : baby store online shop website
Giggling : over benji's smile.
Feeling : great. after 4 days home trip. and meeting with real close friends. It is great.

16 weeks and 4 days

2011-04-24T11:43:00.004+08:00

Little benji boy is 16 weeks, 4 days now.

He has grown up to be a more naughty, talkative, happy and cheeky boy..

He will smile and laugh when i say, who is this? mama love you..

his cry started with "ma.. ma..." whenever he wants hugs and carry..

He loves bathing time.. keep so well behaved until we get him pampered with lotion all over his body..

he drinks 5 oz milk every 3 hourly. Blessed that i still have enough breast milk for him

he is able to take up his head a little when i give him tummy time.. however, he doesnt seems to enjoy that too much.. probably his head is a little too heavy.. :)

He loves talking.. main words are "gru gru.." or "hu hu"..

He knows how to show tantrum when i don respond to him within his acceptable period.

That's my lovely boy..

My boy in Guess Kid Romper

2011-03-06T20:08:00.002+08:00

My benji boy

2011-02-26T20:06:00.001+08:00

8 weeks 3 days

2011-02-26T11:39:00.006+08:00

Time flies, benji boy is now 8 weeks 3 days already.. In Chinese calendar, he is officially 2 months already...

Slowly grow up as a healthy and naughty boy..

My parents and hub say that I pamper him too much.. He demand people carry him whenever he is not sleeping.. he definitely wants full attention from others.. ^.^ Luckily he sleeps a lot.. otherwise me and my maid will be very tiring.. :p

I will be back to work on next Monday.. I am missing him already (even he is now sleeping beside me).. I know my maid will take good care of him, plus my MIL is helping to overlook baby and maid.. but i just cant stop myself missing him!!

有了炫逸以后。。

2011-02-24T16:07:00.002+08:00

一种很复杂的心情。。

在家的快乐，和现在的无奈。。成了强烈的对比。。

日复一日，说真的，好像没有意义似的。。

生活因为有了炫逸而不一样，炫逸变成我的生活的中心。。

如果他微笑，我会开心。。如果他哭，我会烦躁。。

不能想象，如果我的生命里没有炫逸，我的生活将会是怎样。。

我想，或许，我已经失去自我了。。希望，这不是坏事。。

可是，不懂为何，我心里会有失落的感觉。。

Botak Benjamin

2011-01-28T12:17:00.002+08:00

Benjamin has become a bald cute baby since yesterday.

we tried to take his pic with other families members but unfortunately he has been sleep whole day.. I manage to snap some photo when he was half sleep, half awake..

poor mummy, till now, only 1 poor photo taken with my son.

Happie 4th week!

2011-01-26T21:33:00.004+08:00

Happy full month benji..

Time flies. Benji is now 4th weeks already

Today we bring him to see doctor for 2nd Hepatitis B vaccine

He is now 4.1kg & 56.5cm.

I am proud. My effort is not wasted.

New clothes from auntie AI ling

2011-01-22T10:50:00.002+08:00

Benji got a parcel today. It is from Auntie Ai Ling..

Lovely one.. Thanks ai ling!!

p/s: I am the one exhausted.. but no one rewards me... -.-

3rd week

2011-01-19T15:25:00.003+08:00

The story begins....

Mount Alvernia, Singapore at 530am 29 Dec 2010

Operation in progress (~7.30am)

It's all worth it.... (~7.40am)

Nurses cleaning up benjamin

Benjamin first cry

My Lovely darling

Clean up & body checking

Head Circumference = 35cm

Body weight = 3295gms, length = 50cm

Benjamin 1st bed

Benjamin Lee Xuan Yi

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Subsequently....

Benjamin went back to hospital because of jaundice, on the 6th day of birth.. Mummy cries non stop... mummy can only go to bed with benjamin's pillow..

We bring benjamin to Malaysia High Commissions for passport so that we can bring him back for confinement..

Mummy and benjamin works together to success the breastfeeding.. poor benji was forced to wake up even in his sweet dreamland.. Horrible father was snoring like no body business!!

And now... After 3 weeks, here is my lovely benjamin

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Mummy and benjamin

Benjamin is falling alseep again

And again..

Benjamin after feeding

Body Stretching in his daddy's arm

yawning is his favorite expression

"Mummy, I am tired!!"

"I am trying my best to open my eyes!!"

"I tried, I swear I did"

Benjamin Lee

2011-01-17T18:00:00.008+08:00

Just to share some of my darling's photo...

The 17th day

2011-01-15T09:49:00.003+08:00

The 17th day

Benjamin has sleepless night.. so do I

He is uncomfortable at every position we place him to bed.. He drink milk and vomited out.

I am depress. why my poor benji suffer from vomiting? my heart is painful. I do not know what to do.

He has no fever.

My PIL were saying that he has poor weight gain (during birth 3.3kg, now 3.4kg). And now worse, he vomit. and the amount of milk vomited, is really a lot.. i hope is not all that he suck in.. but looks like it.

I know he suffer throughout the night. I cannot do anything... depress.. He is sleeping now, but still not sleeping sound...

should i bring him see doctor? poor benji been seeing doctor within 3 weeks. I really don want to bring him see doctor anymore..

Justice does exist..

2011-01-12T12:49:00.003+08:00

This morning I woke up in good mood.. 1st time i slept until 830am after I gave birth to Benji boy.. (^.^)

Unfortunately, my good mood does not last long.. Seeing my MIL & the confinement lady still standing outside "sun-shining" benji boy at 930am.. When they come back home, they were excited talking about making black currant juice / grape juice to benjamin so that the jaundice will recover... -.-||

Not again... i was thinking.. but i kept quiet.. must be a good daughter in law.. my father always say... SO I KEEP MY MOUTH ZIPPED UP!! because Alvin and I were planning to bring benjamin to see doctor today. I thought we shall see what doctor advise first... but the confinement lady apparently, very good in multi tasking.. manage to work and talk at the same time.. keep telling my MIL not to forget to buy the black currant.. and she was excited saying, oh yes oh yes...

Tak boleh tahan lagi.. I open my mouth and request to have doctor advise 1st.. and there goes the tragedy again... As if I am pushing my son health to the minimum care just because I wanted to hold to my principle.. -.- I tried to explain that baby body is different from us, and fruit juice should be given after 3 months old. well well.. I have the final say.. but unpleasant dismiss to others...

Doctor consultation was fine... the doctor advice that we should stop the turmeric water for baby bathing.. What a smart doctor.. and he says breastfeed may cause jaundice, but it should be recovering soon.. and he strongly recommend that I should continue with breastfeeding.. and the most excellent advice from the doctor : baby is too young for juice, juice should be given after 3 months later..." what a brilliant doctor with wonderful advice!!!!!!

Doctor also mentioned that the sunshine does not actually help much on the jaundice.. only the UV will helps, but at the same time, baby is expose to infrared which might be harmful.. well well.. if all those advise come out from my mouth, I would probably be pointed as the most filial person on earth..

(^.^) luckily I bring along the confinement lady and she was there listening to what doctor says.. muahhahaha.. I can only says justice does exist..

Stay away please

2011-01-09T15:43:00.002+08:00

I definitely love my son. No doubt at all.

I have no idea if the pearl powder helps in reducing the jaundice. But i strongly disagree that he should take pearl powder at this age (only 11 days old??). Moreover, I do not know what are the ingredients in the pearl powder that sells in the Chinese medicine shop.

Should I have made a wrong decision.. or offend to your "suggestion" (kind of like instruction to me). YOU SHOULD NOT HAVE JUDGE ME THAT I AM PUTTING MY SON LIFE IN DANGER! WTF!!!!!!!

I really hate it! and i dislike everything here... except my son of coz..

Fuck it. I do not give a shit. Is my son.. I will give him the best. Not you. You stay away please.

The story of benjamin begin here...

2010-12-29T11:36:00.000+08:00

Everything happen so fast...

i was expecting for benjamin to come to my world, and now, here he is..

at time, i was so uncertain about what's going to happen.. how will benji look like... will he be healthy. bla bla bla.. and now... here he is, sleeping beside me...

on the 28 jan 2010, i slept early... i wanna be sure that i have enough sleep so that benji will see her pretty & fresh look mama when he come to this world..

29 Dec 2010, Alvin and I reach hospital at around 530am. After the admission, we proceed to the ward. measure blood pressure, shaving & changing clothes... I absolutely feel relief when the nurse said I can waive the enema because of the low lying placenta!! Finally, the placenta previa has done 1 good thing for me!! hahhaha..

and then they push me to the operation room... alvin is not allow to come in with me.. i see the fear from his expression. He definitely scare that something will happen to me.. and gladly, after short while, i saw my lovely gynae.. Dr. Lim.. He is definitely the best gynae I have ever met so far!! He is caring, patience and super intelligent! With the presence of the witness and nurses help, the anesthetist start doing the epidural for me.. I have to say, it wasn't painful.. but uncomfortable either..

after a while, the nurses get alvin into the operation room. Dr Lim cut my belly within minute... I din realize that the operation has began until I saw alvin expression change in no time.. And It was absolutely fast.. my operation started around 720am.. and I hear benjamin's cry at 738am! How could I don love Dr. Lim?? according to alvin, he is very steady and was chit chating with the nurses and anesthetist during the operation too.. and I swear, I did not hear the "king king qang qang" sound... It was purely doctor talking only..

My tears drop when the nurse bring benjamin to me.. he is so lovely... and healthy.. and chubby cheek... I will not forget the moment.. I feel my life complete when i kissed him on his cheek... Then Alvin left the operation with the nurse for Benjamin's cleaning and admission..

Without alvin and Benjamin beside me, I admitted that I started to fear and I think i feel the pain.. muahhahha... I know, i know.. this could be my imagination.. but it is ok.. it is all worth it.. I have Benjamin now.. (^.^)

I have to say it again, Dr Lim is extremely an experience doctor.. the operation completed by 810am.. (or earlier??) don ask me how he do it. He did it... and there is no excessive blood lost as expected! I have no regret that I have to spend more for delivering in Singapore!!! He gave me lots lots of courage and professional consultation throughout my pregnancy..

我真的要生孩子了。。

2010-12-27T15:58:00.002+08:00

说了一个月，又一个月。。。

我是真的要生了。。。终于。。。

现在我的肚子真的很大个！！很辛苦～～～

我很不能想象，那些肥胖的人。。挺着那么一大粒的肚皮，难道他们都不会辛苦吗？都不想减肥吗？

腰酸背痛（痛苦，也痛哭。。。）

晚上睡觉，不能平躺，会窒息。。。 -.- 会呼吸困难啦～～

侧躺，也因为肚子太大，压到我得左脚，脚痛。。。

躺下就很难起身，像一只大水牛。。。

吃东西，不可以吃太饱，肚子会痛。。

很容易累，也很容易想睡觉。。。

肚子的裂痕，像火车路一样，一列一列。。一排一排。。

明天，就是我大着肚子的最后一天了！

我想，我会怀念这些日子的。。不过，我现在比较期待看到我儿子的诞生！！

(^o^)

我有40寸"小蛮腰“

2010-12-14T10:34:00.001+08:00

上个星期，我的小蛮腰是39寸。。 -.-||

整个星期，我的肚皮都很痒。。涂了很多很多 anti-stretch mark cream 都没
办法完全止痒。。

今天，突然心血来潮，想说，可能肚子有39.5寸了吧。。。

-.-||| 40 寸！！！

很难跟别人说我的腰是小蛮腰。。（其实，一直都没有过小蛮腰...)

不过，这真的解释了，为什么--- 肚皮很痒。。。

宝贝，你可以长大，不过，老娘求求你，乖乖待在肚子里就好。。别急着出
来。。。

Now only I realized...

2010-12-13T18:57:00.003+08:00

I have been complaining about backache and stomachache for the past 2 weeks...

I thought backache was due to bad sleep, too tired and stress (I have been worrying a lot 有的没的 recently..)

stomachache could probably due to stress and non consistent meal... (even though I have been munching between the meal time), or could it be caused by the supplements that I have been taking??

In fact, I had a very bad one last night.. i had the supplements at 11pm, and couldn't sleep until 12am.. wake up at 2am still feeling the stomach 鼓鼓的, 涨涨的.. went to the toilet but it doesn't help much. I manage to sleep at 3am after a glass of milo with plenty plenty crackers.. I thought it was due to gastric pain (I forgot that i don have gastric -.-)

After talking to ai may today.. I finally understand that those were the sign of contraction pain!!!!

Gosh! I should have ask the gynae last week.. now i am even more kan jiong.. does it mean that benjamin is coming out anytime? Luckily benjamin din decide to come out last night, when i was in JB! phew~~~

it's only week 36 now.. benjamin lee, u better be good boy and stay in mummy's belly for another 2 week.. don give me a heart attack.. be good boy, promise??

Argghh.. backache again....

Count down time...

2010-12-05T14:53:00.002+08:00

There is nothing much that i can do already...

Everyday wake up and count down only..

I used to count down to christmas day in Dec...

Now I wish I can spread my focus to Christmas day.. which I cant.... -.-

I am getting more like a pig now. eat, sleep shit...eat sleep shit... even working days i will rather to take a short nap than to take my lunch...

hope that my condition will get better soon...

Meantime, pray hard hard that benjamin will guai guai stay in my belly until end Dec!!

Stress...........

2010-12-02T13:13:00.003+08:00

I have no confident to handle the stress any further!!

Coming to the last month can be so miserable.. This is so unlike what the pre / post natal book has described.. Rest and relax to get prepare for the delivery moment... =.=||

The story began like this......

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My dearly uncle told me that once I feel like "shitting", that's it! That's the TIME!! Gosh! now i have come to the stage that i thought i am delivering; whenever i feel like "shitting"!!!

Last night i got stomachache.. it was so painful that i have never experience before... I swear at that moment i was about to rush to the hospital! shit! it was 1030pm! i really don want to go into the hospital as emergency case.. Then my hospitalization bill will increase from S$7k to S$17k!!! (according to me experienced uncle again)

Luckily it was just gas in my stomach.. the hub was saying that i did not take proper meal.. hell him! i don know what is consider "proper meal" to him!! beer during dinner time & supper at 11pm? F***! i have no idea how he can judge me like that while he took totally unhealthy meal!

PLUS, doctor says i got healthy weight gain! and my baby is growing healthy in my expanding belly........

It is getting nearer to the day.. Honestly I never thought that i will come across so much stress thinking of benji's health during/after delivery.. I know i gotto be positive thinking.. But I just cannot help myself from thinking "what if...." !!

I need help!

I need consultation!

Am I leading myself to port natal depression?? or my depression has already started??

It's week 34!

2010-11-28T10:29:00.003+08:00

Congrats my darling... you are now in week 34 already... still safe and sound in my tummy..

i am glad that you are growing as a strong boy..

Doctor Lim said you weight 2.1kg.. my boy.. i am so proud of you.. Despite squeezing within the confine space in there, yet you manage to grow well..

i was a bit worry that you will be under weight/size.. but you are doing extremely well!! Thank to you, i am suffering from belly expansion.. -.- the red bumps are not only itchy, but also painful~~~ not to mention that it "developing" right at the CENTER of my belly...

I have no idea how my belly will looks like after giving birth.. but it is certainly worthy.. for my darling Benjamin...

your birthday will be after Christmas.. unfortunately u cannot celebrate Christmas with us this year... but for sure, you will have your 1st new year count down together with daddy and mummy! till then, pls bear with mummy nagging.. and keep staying in my tummy until late December (^.^)

2010 Christmas is near!!

2010-11-18T13:10:00.004+08:00

2010 Christmas is getting so close...

I went for window shopping at Orchard during my last appointment at Mount E.

So excited to see the Christmas tree nicely decorated at Takashimaya!!

And I have received my early Christmas present from my sweet mei mei, esther!!

It is my favorite La Sourse set from Crabtree & Evelyn~~~~

Thanks mei mei~~ 3 jie will buy you a nice gift too!!!

我的儿子 - 打横来的

2010-11-15T11:58:00.002+08:00

现在我终于知道是什麽感觉了。。

广东话说 : 打横来的 --- 蛮不讲理的。。。。

这，就是我的儿子。。

昨天我去看医生。。医生说，因为胎盘的位置占去宝宝的空位，宝宝不能随心
所欲地转动。。

所以，他现在是打横的。。

头，在我的右边，脚在左边。。

我在想，是不是，宝宝越大，那我的肚皮就越向横发展？

有点不可思议。。

很难理解。。。

可是，可以肯定的是，我，遇到对手了。。。讲道理的我，和打横的儿
子。。谁会赢呢？

-.-|||

Blessed day!

2010-11-14T22:48:00.002+08:00

Today is a day that worth celebration.

Early in the morning i receive good news from one of the best friend... (^.^)

today is benji's 32 weeks~~~~ so called... initial stable stage reached!! (^-^) doctor says most babies can survive after 32 weeks.. but may need to stay in the hospital... it doesnt matter... my strong benji can stay in my tummy still.....

my darling hubby successfully set up the baby cot for his lovely son... (^_^)

i got all benji's clothes washed & folded nicely.... but..... yet to get him a wardrobe to keep his clothes.. hehhe... mission incomplete.... but alvin promised that he will get the wardrobe by next weekend..

I HAVE FINALLY COMPLETE MY SHOPPING LIST!!! big to small items! i have got it all!!! i am so happy!!!!!!!!! (^o^)

last but not the least, i have manage to pack my "emergency bag"!! hahahha... (i hope anyone can tell me the better name for "emergency bag"..) if time comes that i have to give birth anytime, alvin just need to grab the bag and bring to the hospital... items for myself and benji are all ready inside the bag~~~

PROUD OF MYSELF~~~~

finally...... i can declare that i am ready to give birth!! despite the benji's passport & maid matters...

Passport --- if benji is born in Singapore, we will need to get his passport ready before we can bring him back to JB for confinememt.. that will take more than 1 week... which means, i will need to stay in Sg *maybe without the confinement lady...

maid --- we are trying to get a maid to take care of benji after my maternity leave... well.. this is still to far to think... it would not be a problem if i am extending my maternity leave... hehhe.. so... not too worry about it...

I AM SO HAPPY TODAY~~~~~ CAN I DECLARE MYSELF WONDERFUL MUMMY??

但愿我还是那个宝贝女儿。。

2010-11-11T20:59:00.002+08:00

爸爸妈妈和妹妹上个星期来新加坡看我。。

很久都没有和家人相处了。。很想家。。很怀念在家的日子。。

三天两夜，很快地就过去了。。老实说，很希望可以一直和家人在一起。。

有时自己也不明白，为什麽当初要离开家里，来到新加坡过生活。。

或许，没有当初的离开，也就没有现在的珍惜吧。。

现在想起他们回家的那一刻，眼眶也会湿湿地。。是荷尔蒙在作怪吗？？

父母回家了。。世界又好像变得很孤单了。。

想很多。。不知是因为我寂寞，还是，我自己也要成为人母了。。

想起我以前还是小女孩的时候，我是爸爸妈妈的掌上明珠。。

为什么一眨眼，我变成了老女人了。。很悲哀呢！！我渴望一直一直是妈妈的宝贝女儿。。

我喜欢向爸爸妈妈撒娇，我习惯爸爸妈妈疼我，宠我，爱我。。

好像，我要成为妈妈了，我就没那个权利了。。

自己要成为妈妈了。。我才了解，父母疼孩子，真的可以是那么毫无条件的。。

很感恩，我有这样的父母，毫无保留地为我们付出。。让我们在有爱的环境下成长。。

我爱您们。。感谢您们。。

很肉麻。。不过，是很真实的。。

Gynae appointments...

2010-11-06T09:48:00.002+08:00

My life is all about gynae appointments....

I have decided to deliver in Sg hospital... However, just in case my son prefer Dr. Ding from Puteri Hospital in JB... I cannot stop the gynae appointment at both JB & Singapore hospital....

I am now in 30-31 weeks of pregnancy.. which means, i am expected to see the gyane every 2 weeks. since i am going to 2 hospital.... I am seeing gynae every week!!! Stress sia...

I visited to JB doctor last weekend, he said Benjamin weight 1.7kg (which i was shock to believe him)... Singapore gynae however, confirmed that he weight only 1.5-1.6kg during my visit this thursday~~~ which is just nice the bb's weight.... Hm~~~~~~ @.@||

no matter how, i am glad that i have got almost everything ready for baby.. except, alvin to set up the baby cot, and i need to get the bb's clothes washed and arrange it nicely in the wardrobe...

i don have much time left... just pray hard that benjamin stays in my stomach until i settle all these things.. =)

28 weeks

2010-10-16T20:25:00.005+08:00

I took half day to see gynae in Mount Elizaberth on Friday..

Benjamin is a week 28 by now..

Doctor Lim did the ultrascan and says that he is 902g and he is at size of week 26. Initially i was a bit worry that he is a bit undersize..

then doctor lim measure his head again.. according to the head diameter & circumference, he is at size of week 27 + 2 days..

"does it mean that my son got big head and small body??" goodness, I cannot imagine I said that to the gynae.. what kind of mother that will make fun of her own son?? -.-!!

Well, the gyane is so kind.. "normally petite mum will have small size baby".. he said.. =)

doctor lim show me the placenta again.. and my darling is positioning himself so well, by taking the placenta as his pillow.. what a boy!

I discovered that the consultation fee varies by time.. The short & long consultation charges is S$70 & S$110 respectively (excluding GST!!). luckily i have listed down my question.. and I manage to cut down the consultation fee this time!! so glad!! ;)

Howover, I should get prepared to save really A LOT OF MONEY for cesarean in singapore... just in case..

benjamin, not to worry about that.. your father will settle for you (^-^).. you just need stay inside mummy's tummy.. and get enough nutriens for yourself..

My baby bag!!

2010-10-12T21:10:00.005+08:00

Hurray!! My Kate Spade baby bag has arrived!!!

I bought a baby bag from reebonz online shopping last Friday...

expecting them to deliver the bag within this week..

Unbelievable!! They have send the bag in a nice large box with gold ribbon!!

I feel so pampered receiving the gift!!

Jia Yu helps in car washing

2010-10-12T20:47:00.005+08:00

I go back to work on Monday morning and see this...

My little darling Jia Yu (Huey Chi's daughter = my cousin) is helping in car wash...

So sweet of her!

Henderson Waves Bridge

2010-10-12T16:08:00.001+08:00

I have been telling Alvin that there is a pedestrian bridge in
Singapore that is famous in it's architectural outlook.

He doesn't believe me.

He says he been in Singapore for so long, and he knows Singapore better
than me.

and i wanna prove him wrong!!! =D

I wanna go there one time.. at least 1 time.

Knowing my husband, I have to provide him all the information so that he
knows how to bring me there... (or i should say, no excuse not to bring
me.. hehe..)

Please click on the link
http://www.holidays-in-singapore.com/henderson-waves.html

Tak Boleh Tahan!!!

2010-10-06T13:19:00.001+08:00

I thought i can hold my frustration....

Hold it... hold it.... hang on.... hang on.....

Grrhhh!!!!!!!!!!

I cannot tahan liao!!!

I cannot believe there are such human being living in this society...
Kanasai!

Fresh graduate, called (should I rephrase it to "announced") himself as
"Dean List"

Asked for seat for his gf in the company annual dinner, whereby the rest
of the director didn't even bring spouse!

Act like the company management when he is just a junior manager.

Tattle around that he was being winkled.. But in fact, he was so "pure"
to misunderstand what others try to tell him!

Grrrhhhh... I know I know.. it is bad to gossip about people like that....

But I really tak boleh tahan liao!!!!!!!!

Please forgive me.......

Universal Studio

2010-10-04T21:07:00.004+08:00

We went to Universal Studio during Raya long weekend.. That was before I get to know about the Placenta previa.. I walked a lot.. happily enjoying the trip...

=p

Tough Decision

2010-10-02T15:17:00.002+08:00

password

It work! Thanks hai again!

2010-10-02T00:17:00.005+08:00

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2nd opinion on Placenta Previa

2010-09-28T17:07:00.001+08:00

I went to Singapore Mount Elizabeth Hospital to seek for 2nd opinion this afternoon.

The doctor says the same... placenta previa

There kills my hope for natural birth...

"It is ok. Many women that have placenta previa do not bleed until baby delivery". The doctor says.

"However, you HAVE to go for cesarean because the uterus is "blocked" and there is no chance for you to give birth naturally."

and doctor advised to go to the fully equipped hospital as there are risk to the mummy and baby..

The placenta previa is a case of "accident" that the embryo did not stick on to the right position, but drop down to a lower part.

There is nothing much that i can do, besides eating more red meat.. because likely i will more severe blood lose when giving birth.

Bed rest wouldn't help as the placenta is fixed into position already. It is certainly not because I walk too much.

But, should any bleeding happens, lying on the bed is to help to stop bleeding (only if it does help).

And, if severe bleeding occur before the mature time, then i will have to stay in the hospital until doctor decide the best time for cesarean.

Doctor is confident, that if the baby is 32 weeks old, almost all the baby can survived..

If everything goes on smoothly (i.e. no bleeding), then doctor will normally operate and bring the baby to the world 14-21 days earlier. Hence, my benji will be a December boy instead of January boy..

I should consider to give birth in Singapore instead.

Bad news from new Gynae

2010-09-27T09:16:00.002+08:00

It is ok.. i keep telling myself.. Everything is going to be alright &
just fine..

------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Alvin & I went to the specialist for check up yesterday.. planning to
change a proper hospital to deliver benji...

Gynae scan my tummy and gave the ''surprising" (or rather scaring) WOW..

Not a very good news from the gynae--- the placenta position is too
low, might lead to risk of miscarriage if i don handle it well.

Rest more, don take heavy items, no sex, he says

my mind is empty..

Should any bleeding happens, must go to see doctor immediately... he
continues,

If the bleeding is serious, then he has no choice but to scarifies the
baby.

Take good care of it, and we will do cesarean for you when the baby is
mature. There is almost NO Chance for you to go for natural birth.

There is nothing much that can be done, it's week 26 already.

Just.. rest well

------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Benji, you have been doing well with mummy till so far.

Don give up.

Mummy will bring you come to the world safely. Don worry.

u just eat (absorb) well, rest well, and play well inside the protection
zone.

Don bother to come out so early, you little curious kid...

Mummy will tell you when it is right time to come to the world..

There is many to explore.. but not your time, yet....

We must be strong to overcome this together.. you, me & daddy

Benji, we love you.

Be strong..

Shopping List for Benji..

2010-09-21T08:44:00.000+08:00

I am not sure if every mom does this..

Have I been thinking too much to plan ahead? Nvm nvm.. I think as a responsible parents, it is my duty to do proper planning for my darling benji... =)

No sure what alvin will do for him thou... as he always claim like to say "benji 乖，爸爸疼你，爸爸会保护你。。" blah blah blah....

Well, if alvin is willing to pay for all the items in the shopping list below... i will believe that what he said to benji was truth.... ^.^

I used the whole night yesterday to come out with the list.. Though is not so finalized yet... but I am pretty proud of myself... haha..

Thanks to Charmaine, Ai May & Lynn for the advice...

Please help me to look see look see.. if i have to add anything in... and what is the recommended brand / design... Tolong Tolong....

Perhaps i need to call iris soon... hehehe...

    For Mummy
1    Nursing bra
2    clip
3    Breast pad
4    sarong
5    nursing tea
6    sanitary pad
7    disposable underwear
8    dry powder shampoo
9    Nipple cream

    For Baby
    Bed
1    baby cot
2    playpen
3    nursing pillow
4    bedding

    Hygiene & Health care
1    thermometer
2    nasal aspirator
3    nail clipper

    Milk
1    Sterilizer
2    storage bottle
3    breast pump
4    milk bottle
5    bottle washer & sponge
6    cooler & bottle bag
7    pacifiers

    shower & cream
1    bathing tub
2    head to toe cleanser
3    baby cream
4    nappy rash cream

    wears
1    nappy
2    fastener
3    diaper
4    Bb mitten n botties
5    stocking
6    swaddle blanket

    Travel
1    car seat / carrier
2    stroller
3    baby sling
4    baby carrier

i Hate brushing teeth now...

2010-09-17T08:45:00.001+08:00

I hate brushing teeth nowadays...

the toothbrush go into my moth in white (with toothpaste) and came out
red (with blood).....

and i can feel that the gum is swollen and really uncomfortable..

what can i do about it?

I ask my gynae if i am losing too much calcium and he said it is not
because of that...

bleeding is purely because of swollen gum...

and he advice me to see dentist instead!!

Is that true??

I need advice......

or should i change my toothpaste?

A date with mummy...

2010-09-14T09:12:00.001+08:00

Daddy was sleeping soundly...

Think left think right, mummy decided to bring you out for a walk...
hehehe...

tokk daddy's car key, mummy bring you to the gynae...

fortunately, it was raya cum school holiday.. the clinic was not crowded
as normal weekend...

mummy put on weight by 2.5kg compared to last check up.. good good...
means that you are growing as well.. =)

doctor was doing ultrasound on my mummy's tummy... where you stay in
currently..

mummy see you with ur heart beating.. so sweet of you.. and mummy can
see u growing bigger... so glad...

doctor says you are growing, even you are petite now, so not too worry... =)

you are now 500g, at 5 months big...

oh oh.. doctor also manage to show mummy your little chick chick (小鸡
鸡) le..

daddy must be very happy..

here, Benjamin Lee, stay safe & healthy inside mummy tummy until you are
mature to come to the world..

mummy loves you.. the sleeping daddy loves you too...

<<daddy's hobby === eat, sleep, watch movie, play games>> do get used to
it..... @.@

Baby loves papa

2010-09-07T09:16:00.001+08:00

I cannot imagine how the baby (even inside the tummy!!) can react to
my feelings.....

yesterday alvin was back home late. i tried to call him but he did not
answer the call.

so i become very nervous and started to get worry...

and the little one also kei po kei po join in the "kan-jiong-ness....

kicking here and there.. like instructing me: "hey! look for daddy! i
want daddy!"

until alvin return calls, the little one still non stop kicking...

"hey, don forget me! i want to talk to daddy too! i miss daddy too!"

sigh... very troublesome father & baby...

i have to entertain both... i become the messenger in between pulak~~~~~~

I was very tired and need to sleep....

and the little one just cant stop kicking.......

"hey, i have not talk enough! call daddy! i wanna talk to daddy...."

sorry darling.. mummy need to sleep....

muahahhaha...

Official launching of Tsubame Website

2010-09-04T09:27:00.001+08:00

I am seriously impressed.

Now i really believe that, one does not need to be good in academic results to prove to others that you are capable.

My brother, booby ang who does not even have a degree certificate... he build up his own brand..

and indeed, it is seriously impressive.

I think he put a lot of effort in this business. and i am extremely proud of him.

Tsubame products.. weird combination actually --- bird nest, bird nest mask, lip gloss, facial product etc....

I have to admit that i am in love with the bird nest mask.. the moisturizing effect is awesome!

and the lip gloss is moisturizing yet not sticky... well, at least your partner will not complain.. 粘粘的... =)

Please take a look and give your support...

http://www.tsubamecorp.com

Terrible Horrible Home sick...

2010-08-27T09:13:00.001+08:00

yesterday 26 August was my favorite uncle, wee sheng's birthday.

Looking at how his mum & his family celebrated his birthday... so envy..

argh... i really miss home..

I have to admit that i am blessed to have relatives in Singapore while i
am working here alone.. they do take good care of me..

No complaints.. really..

But after all, I still feel the horrible lonely at the late night,
before i go to bed... sigh...

i miss klang, i miss my family... i miss my friends.. and i miss alvin..

i miss the time that i can chit chat with esther before i go to bed...
even she fail to talk to me most of the time... she sleep super fast!
she can sleep once her body touch the bed!

i miss the moment that i can sleep on my parents bed... hugs them & feel
the pampered love from them...

i miss home.....

Tequila Shot!!!

2010-08-24T10:18:00.000+08:00

Gosh,

Suddenly I miss the tequila shots so much...

it has really been ages that i last had it...

argh...

Do i deserve to have 1-2 shots during chinese new year 2011?

Can i have that as my new year wish?

Appointment with darling baby on 22 August 2010

2010-08-23T15:25:00.001+08:00

Darling, you are in 20 weeks already...

daddy and mummy had an appointment with the gynae to meet up with you
again on last Sunday..

daddy was so excited as we will get to know your gender supposedly on
last Sunday.. mummy was not so eager to know your gender.. I just wanna
know that you are a healthy baby...

However, the naughty you.. u hide your "private part" with your leg,
intentionally want to keep your little secret to yourself..

hahahhaha...

mummy is glad to know that you are healthy.. but can see that your daddy
was a bit disappointed... hahaha..

Daddy and mummy want you to know that we are not particular on your
gender.. We just want to know so that we can fit your name, darling..
hahhahaha.. we cannot be calling baby and baby and baby all the time..
hahaha

Daddy has fixed up your name though, back to years ago.. hahhahahha.. we
will announce to you once you expose your gender to us.. as an exchange
gift.. haha..

darling, daddy and mummy hope that you will be happy and healthy baby..
no matter what happen, daddy and mummy love you.

Me & Alvin's Solemnization Ceremony in Yio Chu Kang CC on 21 August 2010

2010-08-22T22:06:00.006+08:00

Alvin was surprise with the ambiance in the solemnization room. I am glad that he likes it. All efforts worth!!

Thanks DH for the supports! Love ya!

Must watch!!!!

2010-08-19T12:12:00.001+08:00

Gosh! I must watch this!

The expendables!

Friends, please support me in facebook!!!

I MUST watch this!!!

My new crocs shoe!!!

2010-08-18T20:27:00.004+08:00

I was suppose to be on leave today...

Me and Alvin went to Ministry of National Development (MND Building) for verification and marriage certificate this morning....

while waiting for our turn, we were both so nervous and i asked alvin if he sincerely wanna marry me.. hahahhaha... at the end he throw the question to me. which i din answer.. hahhaha.. erm.. no comment no comment...

after the "formal procedure", alvin gotto rush back to JB for tender interview.. so i go for shopping~~~ walked around in junction 8, surprisingly I found CROCS!!! hurray!!!

I bought 2 pairs of CROCS! happie happie~~~

Registry of Marriage

2010-08-17T11:03:00.001+08:00

I am "proudly" announce that me and alvin are going to register as legal
husband and wife this Saturday!! 21 August 2010!!

That is my sweet mei mei, esther's birthday as well...

yeah yeah... by saying this, IT DOES mean that i am a 未婚妈妈..
muahhahahha... well, i am a modern woman... u guys knew that...

The ceremony will be "grandly" organized in Yio Chu Kang Community Club,
Singapore..

Why I choose there? Hm... Look at the pic!! Isn't it nice place to have
my ROM???? hahhahaha...

It is not free! I have paid S$100 for the 30 min. ceremony! and this
exclude the ang pow to the solemniser!

Will keep you update on the progress, hopefully everything goes on
smoothly...

till then, just hope that my tummy slow down the rate of growing for
this week... so that I can still fit in to the simple white dress that i
have just bought from MNG last month!

Solemnization Vow

2010-08-16T09:03:00.001+08:00

I was given 3 options for the ROM (Registry of Marriage) by the Solemnization party...

Option 1
In token and pledge, of our constant faith,
And abiding love, with this ring,
I marry you.

Option 2
In sickness, I will nurse you to health,
In health, I will nurture you.
In sadness I will bring you joy.
In happiness, I will share it with you.
In poverty, I will make our love rich.
In wealth, our love will not grow poor.
When you need encouragement, it will be from me.
When you need a helping hand, it will be mine.

With this ring as a token, I now marry you.

Option 3
I vow to always keep my love, as pure as it is today.
In your laughter, and your tears, in your sickness, and your health.
In your comfort, and your fears, in your poverty and your wealth.
I promise to be true to you, I promise to cherish you.

I give this ring, as a token, I now marry you.

I laugh and laugh over the 2nd option.... muahhahaha...
is like...
In sickness, I will nurse you to hell,
In health, I will torture you....
......
I told Alvin that i will no matter what not to choose this.. otherwise i will laugh during the solemnization... hahhahaha...

So, very rarely, we both have the same decision... to take Option 1 as our vow....
hahahhaha....

Craving on Durian Mooncake...

2010-08-14T13:01:00.001+08:00

The mid-Autumn festival is near. Actually I normally know it as the
Mooncake festival la....

Suddenly this morning i have the craving for durian mooncake... i bought
one very very awesome durian mooncake in Singapore 2 years ago...

but i couldn't remember what brand is it...

Search online but fail to find any information.. anyway, i am not so
good in website thing... hahhaa...

asked a brilliant "live information counter"... (sorry iris, but are are
the best information counter!!!)

and iris manage to help me to get the information!!

the durian mooncake is from Home's Favorite!!! the webpage:-
http://www.homesfavourite.com/promotions.htm

I called up to the shop and they say they only start selling on 20
August 2010!!!!!

i must buy! i must buy!!! dying for the durian mooncake!!!

Our First Quarrel after the wedding

2010-08-12T14:49:00.001+08:00

宝贝，昨晚爸爸和妈妈吵架了。。

因为妈妈很想回外婆家坐月。。可是爸爸就是不了解妈妈的心情。。

宝贝，爸爸妈妈吵架，不是因为我们不相爱。。你可以放一百个心。。我们吵
架，是因为我们都很想为你争取最好的！！

宝贝，爸爸妈妈都很爱你。。

或许爸爸都不知道。。妈妈已经可以感觉到你的胎动了！！

这对妈妈而言，是难以形容的感动的幸福。。

宝贝，因为你，妈妈的世界变得精彩。。

不过，妈妈吃的食物不多，妈妈很抱歉，希望没有妨碍到你的成长。。

就好象，妈妈常讲的，妈妈什么都不求，但希望你健康成长。。

Testing testing to upload from email

2010-08-12T09:45:00.001+08:00

This is a test blog that I tried to upload from my email.

Thanks Thiam Hai for teaching me... hahhaha

However, hai hai, i am not so dump to let you know my secret password...
muahhahhaha...

this is good.. then i can upload my blog whenever i feel bored in work..
hahhaha

小小的心跳。。

2010-08-01T12:23:00.002+08:00

昨晚回到凯威的家，已经晚上十点了。。

累得半命。。躺在床上，把手放在已经突起的肚子，累得想睡觉了。。

突然，手掌隐约感觉到宝宝的心跳。。以为自己想太多了。。赶紧叫凯威过来一起感受。。

他把手放在我的肚子上，我问他，感觉到什么了吗？ “宝宝的心跳！！“他说。。

好兴奋！！原来不是我想太多了！真的是宝宝的心跳！！

我的宝贝，原来我可以感觉到你的心跳。。

我的宝贝，你在妈妈的肚子里还好吗？爸爸妈妈都爱你。。爸爸很努力地，每天都想个笑话给你和妈妈听。。

宝宝，你要加油，好好的，健康地成长。。

Surprise Visit from Alvin!!

2010-07-30T22:19:00.002+08:00

29 July 2010, Thursday

Dear hubby surprise me by calling me at 6.50pm and telling me that he is on the way to Singapore to have dinner with me.. =) told me that he will be arrive my uncle's place at 7.30pm but finally arrived at 8pm.. As usual, my hubby is never punctual... =P

We went to a small restaurant named Liquid Kitchen with David & Michelle (Alvin's brother & his gf).. Order quite a lot of nice yummy snacks & main course.. Unfortunately i din bring my camera.. manage to get 2 pictures from the webpage :P

the hot & spicy drumlets

chicken quesadilla

Alvin took a tired and long journey back to JB after the dinner and he finally reached home at 12am. Poor him... but i was totally satisfied with the surprise visit.. Well, hope that he can do it more often in future.. hehe....

My weddinfg album..

2010-07-29T22:48:00.005+08:00

29 July 2010, Thursday

Almost forgotten to share my wedding album.. that i took about 1.5 months ago... haha...

you are 15 week old now..

2010-07-26T23:00:00.002+08:00

26 July 2010, Monday

my darling, you are already 15 weeks old..

mummy loves u.. you come on time to bond up daddy and mummy so closely..

mummy loves u.. irregardless your gender..

mummy loves u.. even you are not a doctor or lawyer in future..

mummy loves u.. no matter how u look like.. to daddy & mummy, you will forever be the most charming and adorable one...

darling, my only hope on you is that you grow up in good health and stay happy all the time.. mummy's love to you will stay, no matter u are 15 weeks old, 15 months old, or 15 years old.. mummy always love you...

得与失

2010-04-25T22:25:00.002+08:00

25 四月 2010，星期日

今天看见一则广告，有一段广告词很有意思。。

“人生不应该只在乎得与失”

我觉得十分有道理。。现代人，都有个毛病，太在乎得与失，而往往忽略了身边美好的事物。。

不说别的，大多人在一生当中，不断地追求名于利。。

common嘛，我要事业有成，我的事业高峰，不外是当一名Proffesional Engineer (PE)，然后赚更多的钱。。要怎样才能成为PE呢？当然要很努力咯。。努力的做工，认真地学习，务必要在最短的时间学会最多的学问，酱子在考PE时才能够一次过嘛！！

酱子就真的是 “年轻有为”！！不枉天公有保佑，阿母有照顾。。

我相信 “有得必有失，有失也必有得”

一个人，把时间和精神都专注在事业上，那，家庭呢？那，健康呢？那，一切一切所错过的生命中美好的事物呢？

当然，也有人会说，没事业，没保障的生活，没钱，哪来的 “美好的事物”呢？朋友们，那是见仁见智吧。。

算你有身份，有地位，有钱。。偏偏没健康，看到美女也不是一样“烂烂”。。女人有事业，没照顾好家庭更糟，就白白等着被冠上 “势力的女人”， “不简单的女人”。。

唉呀，人生就是那么矛盾嘛。。何必想那么多呢？

想想，什么是最重要的？对我而言，当然是家庭了。。感谢二姐，二姐是家里的bonding agent..

当然，也感恩，让我有着一段美好的人生旅程。。。

我知道，我得到的，比我所失去的，多得更多更多。。

送给我的朋友们，希望你们知足常乐。。有时间的话，想想自己错过了什么，努力地找回来吧！！

Bangkok Trip

2010-04-19T22:53:00.003+08:00

19, April 2010 Monday

Hai hai asked me why i have not been uploading pic in my blog.... well... when one put on weight horribly, terribly and vegetable-ly... u know why....

However, upon request, i would like to share a little of my pic... haha..

泰国曼谷游

2010-04-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

4月1日 - 4 日 2010

从来都没有到过曼谷。。

终于。。在我还没有人老珠黄时，有机会和诗萍与美英一起去一趟。。@.@

很多人说，曼谷是购物天堂。。我很是怀疑。。不枉这一趟，我终于见识到，原来，古人所说的 -- 读万卷书，不如行万里路。真的是，我孤陋寡闻哪。。

曼谷 -- 撇开它的购物天堂不说，我更是喜欢那看似发达，但偏偏却又保留着当地的文化和习惯。。

曼谷的交通，如果真的要比较，它真的不比马来西亚差，有着4层通往不同方向的高速公路，完整的行人天桥（我真的没有见过三角形和圆形的天桥!!), 还有设备良好的LRT.

但，当地人偏偏保留着当地的交通文化 -- 嘟嘟车。。当然，不外还有吸引游客的因素。。

这样的对比居然还没有对当地居民带来困扰，或冲突。。大家有好像很乐得其中。。要欣赏曼谷特色的旅客，可以选择乘搭嘟嘟车；要赶时间购物的人嘛，大可乘搭的士，前往目的地。。

曼谷，让人印象深刻。。

冷眼看世间冷暖

2010-02-20T14:01:00.002+08:00

astro 有一套剧集--娘家。。

剧情好像是描述一个女人出嫁了，在外家过得不如意，幸得有娘家依靠。。

娘家，娘家。。不过就是一个女人在还未出嫁时的家。那里有自己的父母，兄弟姐妹，自己最亲近的人。。

讽刺的是，愚昧的人类啊。。善忘的人们。。忘了根，忘了身上流着一样血的人。。亲人。。

悲哀啊。。人生观，究竟什麽就重要？

还是每个人不一样吧。。

我想，我永远不会忘记那些回忆吧。。

接受和放下，毕竟是不一样的。。

除夕夜。。

2010-02-13T17:24:00.002+08:00

13，二月 2010

今天是除夕夜，也是情人节前夕。。

终于有长假了。。我回家了。。回家的感觉真好。。

男朋友与他的家人们去了上海，所以我的情人节是一个人过的。。

不过，和我的家人们一起过年们也一起，是我每一年的期待。。所以，我也是超开心的！！

中午的团圆饭，姐姐和姐夫们也一起回家吃团圆饭。

妈妈和莉云煮了一大锅的盆菜。。不过，以我们家人的食量，依然没办法搞定那锅盆菜。。

哈哈。。

幸福的感觉，回家真好。。

I love you.

2010-02-09T21:47:00.004+08:00

09 Feb 2010, Tuesday

Darling, i love you.

Thanks for being so kind to me.

You are such a loving & patience person.

I knew you love me, but never expect that it will be so muchie......

i love the cartier ring. it was gorgeous...

u knew what exactly i want. you such an adorable babe.

no one know me better than you. you are the best.

it was just what i dream of. my babe, is still after all the same man...

quiet, shy, slumber... cartier??? haha. probably i wil get a cartier paper bag (which i don think i will get as well......) haha.

but anyway, darling i stil love you so. you are a real kind man.

i love it!

2010-02-08T22:55:00.002+08:00

8th Feb 2010, Monday

Goodness, I am so impress by myself for doing up this new layout for my little blog...

I am simply the genius.. haha..

so sleepy....

我要睡觉!!

2010-02-08T05:22:00.002+08:00

8 二月2010，星期一

靠，我真的很眼睡。。

昨晚很早就睡了。。想说，今天得早起上班。。

被邻居的吵架声吓醒后，就一直很难再睡了。。。

搞到现在，我真的困死了。。

Under Construction..

2010-02-07T22:22:00.002+08:00

07 Feb 2010, Sunday.

My Blog is under construction... please bear with me. i am the idiot in all these. u know me laaa... haha...

i try to put in the chat box first. but... i need to sleep for now. haha.

love you all. see u soon. except my dearly ann.. thanks for your help. lop ya.

christmas is just at the corner!!!

2009-12-22T21:46:00.002+08:00

23 December 2009, Wednesday..

It's year end again!! hm... can i make my christmas wish?? Can i have my dream christmas present list??

1. Stay happie - i think i will stay happie, real happy if i have all these..... hehe

2. Stay young - would be good if someone can supply me, La mer facial product

3. Stay energetic in work - probably a mont blanc pen and/or a Loewe Leather bag can help in that...

4. Feel secure - opps.. God blessed. I have got my dream house. ;p.. nevertheless, a full equiped coffee maker would make the house perfect!!!

5. ooh ooh.. i can never forget my collection of watch --- hm.. still thinking about the BALL.. haha

6. pray hard hard that my wallet will be full with money. and i strongly believe that the mney can best fit in the LOEWE classic series wallet

Greedy of me???? CERTAINLY NOT!!! everyone deserve to dream!

这幸福真的属于我吗？

2009-12-14T08:44:00.002+08:00

14 十二月，2009 星期一

真的很久没有写部落了。。

事实上，除了公作上忙碌以外，自己心里也认为好像没啥好写的。。

可是现在想想，中间的过程好像也完成了不少我想要完成的事。。

真的很开心。。

朋友们，我买了一间屋子了！！真真实实是我梦想中的家。。

真的很开心。。

我和凯威终于达到一定的共识了，现在我们的相处也好像比以前好多了。。

也真的很开心。。

现在的我，不禁怀疑，这样的幸福，真的是属于我的吗？

这份幸福，它会陪伴我很久很久吗？

我想，我已经沉沦在这样的幸福里了。。

2009-11-14T10:37:00.002+08:00

我曾经爱过，也曾经努力争取过，当然也给了机会大家共同尝试。。

但，世事并不可能理所当然地如我所愿。。

我当然也不可能坐以待毙，不能奢想他人为我铺路，实现我梦想。。

既然如此，就得靠自己努力，一点一滴地把自己的梦想填满。。。

毕竟，快乐不是等待他人奢侈的。。

November 2009

2009-11-01T21:47:00.005+08:00

1st Nov 2009, 星期天

已经接近年尾了。。时间真的是悄悄地流逝了。。

自从开始了新工作，就真的很忙很忙了。。

为什么没有更新我的部落格？当然，除了忙，就是没啥有趣的事情发生。。

日子就是这样平平淡淡地度过。。

但，谁说平淡不是一种幸福呢？？

老实说，开始了这份工作，我好像渐渐地找回。。《珍惜拥有的》。。那种想法。。

以前，当我一想到，我离乡背井来到新加坡，就应当，理所当然，必须拥有事业，生活和感情顺利。。当有什麽不称心，就会变得很懊恼，然后怨天尤人。。

谁说事情一定必须称我心，如我愿呢？又或许，我已经拥有了别人眼中的幸福与成就，只不过，我被贪念盖住了眼睛，一心想要得到更多，而没有好好地珍惜眼前所拥有地？

现在的这份工作，的确比上一份辛苦。。但，一看到我的同事们认真的工作，我不禁感恩，我不是比他们幸福得多吗？我不是比他们拥有得多吗？还有啥好抱怨的？

有时候，当我们对身边的人，事，物，拥有不满时。。真的，停下脚步，定一定心情。。看一看，想一想，原来，我们拥有的，真的很多。。很多。。深深地一个呼吸，不爽的心情，原来也可以随着呼吸，消失地无影无终了。。

朋友们，你们好吗？

2009-10-17T12:30:00.002+08:00

17th October 2009, 星期六

已经很久都没写部落格了。。很忙，真的很忙，也有一点累。。老实说，其实也有点后悔，不过，后悔是改变不了现况的。。所以，我决定，把后悔变成力量！！发奋图强！加油！加油！！

朋友们你们还好吗？对不起，真的好久都没有联络了。。我没有忘记你们。。每一天，我都希望你们过得幸福，快乐。。

我嘛，还是个老样子咯。。现在还是在新加坡工作。。不同的是，换了个东家，换了工作环境，也换了生活环境。。

以前，我都是住在柔佛，每天搭巴士和地铁去上班。。朝九晚六的，准时上班，准时回家。。现在嘛，就住在新加坡，住的地方和上班的地点十分，非常接近。。可是，就没得准时下班了。。

就说嘛，我是真的很忙的啦！！

有些人会问，这样辛苦，值得吗？我想，值不值得，不是重点。。毕竟，这是生活的一部分嘛。。

所以，朋友们，生活上，不论有遇到称心或真不如意的时候，都希望你们能以平常心对待。。毕竟，这只是生活的一部分。。

First day work!!

2009-10-01T19:28:00.004+08:00

1st October 2009, Thursday

Today is my first day work in my new office. ;)

Overall, i am happy with this job.. so far so good le..

Colleagues are nice & humour..

Things are good.. small company.. bit messy of filing system (unlike my previous company, with the ISO filing) good or not good? certainly not up to me to judge..

as long as i am happy with it... it doesn't matter... ;)

i have been telling myself.. be satisfy with what i have, stay happy...

幸福，是自己努力得来的。。

2009-09-30T14:58:00.004+08:00

30th September 2009, Wednesday

终于，又回到了轨道了。。就在明天，我又要开始新的工作，新的生活了。。

昨天，在飞机上，我不禁问自己，是我的宿命吗？离开家人，离开朋友。。

自我中学毕业以来，我就没有机会好好地留在家里，享受家庭的温暖。。纵使有三年的时间是在蒲种工作，也因为工作忙碌，很少机会待在家里。。

认识我的人都知道，我其实是一个很恋家的人。。我很喜欢待在家里，即使哪里也不去，什么都不做，我也开心。。

偏偏，就是没有那个命啦。。。

其实，我也觉得很无奈的啦。。想想，我就变成很忧郁了。。

可是，再往另一个方向想，如果这真的是冥冥中的安排，的确是我的宿命，得远离家乡，到另一个地方去发展。。

那为什么我偏偏要钻牛角尖，非得要把自己搞得闷闷不乐呢？

的确，我是想留在家里。。的确，我是想拥有自己的家。。的确，现在的我，和梦想中有很大的差异。。但，其馀钻牛角尖，倒不如，珍惜现在所拥有的。。把我所有的，变成实现梦想的动力和筹码。。

那，不是更加有意思吗？

好了！就酱子决定了！！好好加油哦!!

我的幸福，我来了！！

p/s: 谁说幸福是别人给的？明明就是自己努力得来的。。 ;)

My Sdyney Trip 17th - 21st Sept 2009

2009-09-25T20:53:00.002+08:00

我回家了！！

2009-09-23T21:16:00.002+08:00

dear fellow friends...

here i am, back from holiday -- Sydney..

Please give me some time to tidy up and/edit the photos..

thank god that i am back already as today news says Sydney is suffering from red haze blanket and many flights has been postponed & rescheduled.

^-^

love everyone.. i am happy to give myself this 3 weeks break before i start another new job. phiew.. made a real good decision.. have not been so relax and satisfy with life for so long...

i need a break, and i am having it...

;)

The sweet darling.. baby zoey..

2009-09-14T17:47:00.002+08:00

14th September 2009, Monday

Look at this sweet darling.. Adorable, isn't she??

She is Darling Zoey -- Ai May's daughter, born on 0909009.

hope everyone reading this blod give her the best wishes & blessing.. for her to stay happy, stay adorable, stay healthy, stay lovely...

Auntie lilie love you, baby zoey..

daddy's birthday!!

2009-09-14T17:41:00.002+08:00

13th September 2009, Sunday

Today is daddy's 57th birthday!!

We had "mee sua" for breakfast.. have i ever mentioned that my mum cook awesome mee sua?? yummy!!

We went to Victoria Station, USJ for dinner.. We did bring camera to the restaurant, but everyone is so hungry and couldn't be bother to take pics in the restaurant.. haha...

Fortunately, we manage to take some pictures at home.. ;)

What a Bitch!

2009-09-02T20:53:00.001+08:00

2nd Sept 2009, Wednesday

That bitch steps on my tail today..

Bitch: What is FSS room means?
me: I don know le. Architect mentioned about it, but i have no idea what it is.
Bitch : (with CB smile on her CB face) I know you are leaving next friday, so now you don bother anything d..
Me : wa! you don say like that, i am still doing work one le...
Bitch (with even more CCB look): if can don do, you don want to do already..
Me : who say, i am still doing a lot of work now. Don anyhow say!

With my bloody CB face. She realize that she had say something wrong. and just keep quiet and go back to her "work"..

WTF!! i din realized that i have dislike her till this extend!

muahhahah!!!

原来，我真的不是一个那么坚强的人。。。

2009-08-29T17:47:00.000+08:00

许多的无奈，言语无法形容。。
我爱的人，却已经是离我最远的人。。

幸福离我那么地遥远。。
想怎样? 强抓着不属于我的快乐吗?

是爱得不够吗?
为什么那么轻率地伤害?
为什么要原谅却又那么难?

心里真的很难过。。
但，已经习惯了一个人舔伤口。。

现在才知道。。
原来，我真的不是一个那么坚强的人。。

2009-08-25T20:43:00.001+08:00

脑海里好像有很多想法。。但又好像空白一片。。
没有承诺，也没有负担。。
没有甜蜜，也没有苦涩。。
好像就是那么一回事。。

原来，结束一段感情，就是那么一回事。。

关心我的人，请不要问起，
爱护我的人，也不要安慰我。。
此时此刻，我的心是脆弱的，
我的眼泪是容易流下的。。

我的感情世界，是失败的。

I am fine!!

2009-08-19T19:02:00.002+08:00

19th August 2009, Wednesday

I am fine.

I have realized that, repeative failure can actually helps to immune one's feeling.

When I fail achieving my target for the first time, i curse.. for the 2nd time, i was upset with myself, 3rd, 4th, 5th times... eventually i will tell myself, it is ok, this is not the first time.. One day i will finally fix it up.

When i put on weight for the first 0.5kg, i will tell myself -- it is ok, it is just half kg, it is not significant, and the fats should be able to cut off easily. When the 2nd 0.5kg fats appear, i said : Lilie, you should seriously cut down your junk food intake!! When the 3rd, 4th 5th etc etc 0.5kg turns up quietly, i have no choice but saying : lilie oh lilie, you are fat, but those elderly says you look better! So, don worry about it!Be happy with the way you are! why bother how others think about you?? Live happily!!

Similarly, when one hurts me for the 1st time, i forgive; for the 2nd time, i was angry, but yet i forgive; for the 3rd time, i was mad, still i forgive... When it comes to the N times, i am immune to it. Well, this is not the first time, probbaly it wil be the last time, I told myself. However, when it comes to the NxN times, i decided to give up, like i gave up on other things. Hm.. It doesnt feel so hard that i thought.. opps, i almost forgotten, i was immune to it through out the process.